Does it really matter?

I've thought about all the people in my life who have told me that I can't and I'm not good enough. I found this song and when I hear it to me it says does it really matter what they say? What really matters is how you view yourself and how God views you too. "Wouldn't want to be anybody else. You made me insecure, told me I wasn't good enough. But who are you to judge when you're a diamond in the rough. I'm sure you've got some things you'd like to change about yourself but when it comes to me I wouldn't want to be anybody else. I'm not beauty queen I'm just beautiful me. You got every right to a beautiful life come one. Who says? Who says your not perfect? Who says you're not worth it? Who says you're the only one who's heard it? Trust me that's the price of beauty who says you're not pretty? Who says you're not beautiful? Who says?"
I've also found it's better to forgive those who have said those things and to try to see their side. It's so much easier and life seems to go by better.

Some things I am grateful for

I am grateful for my friends who go out of their way to help me in times of need. Sun rises that give me a wonderful way to start off an early morning class. Sunsets that help me finish a day right. Phones that allow me to call my family. Food that is clean and edible. My Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ,and the Holy Ghost. The people my Heavenly Father have placed in my life. The many opportunities for growth I have each day. People who find reasons to be happy. Photos that remind me to go to the temple and do temple work. Walks that help me clear my head and take in everything.

This semester

This semester I set it up to be easy but somehow it wasn't. I had set in mind expectations for what I wanted to do. I wanted a simply easy semester filled with zero drama and fun times around the corner all the time. That worked for a while but soon took a nasty turn. I found myself caught in drama, found myself bitter, found myself in all sorts of trials and tribulations, things I was focusing on trying to avoid. I've learned to not set expectations in life for when you do that is the moment things will go wrong. Take life as it comes and do the best to prepare for a good future but don't expect anything to come. I've also learned to be grateful for the good things that do come but to not expect them to come. Plan each day as if you have to overcome something everyday. Each day go into it with the mindset that you have nothing to lose but everything to gain. Start over everyday new, from scratch. Yesterday no longer matters but live in the moment that you have. Each day prove to yourself who you are, what you can accomplish, and where you are going to go. Don't worry about what others think or say about you but live your life the way you want to. Drown everything else out but the sound of your own voice telling you where to go. Expect nothing. Grab a good dream and chase it until you catch it. After you have caught it find another dream and chase it until you have caught it. That is what this semester has taught me.

Life can surprise you

Sometimes life can surprise you. I always thought that one of my roommates was someone who just simply didn't like me. I was wrong. She got sick with a cold. Sometimes I am so blunt. I say this because I didn't pick up on it. She had to tell me. I offered to help her and she told me that she didn't want me to feel like she was taking advantage. It was that moment when I realized that she really had cared all along and I had been so protective of myself that I didn't even realize. Sometimes life has a strange way of revealing itself.

Other than that Thanksgiving was great. I didn't have to spend it alone. I thought spending it alone would be for the best but I am quite glad I didn't have to. I discovered that no matter where I go no matter what happens there will always be someone watching over me. For that I am grateful!

There is power in friendship

As I was watching a T.V. show it reminded me of the many times my friends became heroes for me. They stepped in and bravely said or did some things to better my life, no matter how small it may seem. They were there for me when no one else was. I am so grateful they were there for me when they were, even if I tried to push it all away at the time. I've come such a long way and I have become someone I love. Yes, I love myself. That may sound vain but I love the shoes I wear, I love the roles I fill, I love the things I get to learn, I love who I am continuing to become, and I love what I have. I don't want to ask for anything more than what I already have. I have come to the realization that some day I may have to and if I do then I do. I know that now. To all of my friends who might read this, thanks.

I've noticed this lately

Lately it feels like all I have heard are complaints. It seems as if no one is ever satisfied with what they have. I don't think I have heard once that people are just content with where they are, who they are, or what they already have. Sometimes I feel like the only person in the world who could be happy with so little. One day I will live in a world where I can just hear how people are content with what they have regardless of what they have. Every blessing they receive they don't wish they had it any other way. It would be Heaven to be around people who didn't get jealous over anything but rather love the shoes they were asked to fill or the shoes that they are wearing. Oh well, I suppose you can't win them all.

Glancing back, but only glancing

Looking back at my life, just for a second, I am so grateful for everything. I try to be grateful for the things that I have and not define myself for what I lack. It's a better way to live. I am grateful for the many things in my life. You may be reading this and thinking something like "She is trying to teach me something or she is so cocky." Nope. I'm simply stating my belief; no strings attached. Anyways I am content with my life and where I am at right now. I feel like I have everything I need and then some. Things in my life have come and gone. I have gotten attached to things and have fallen into pain over the thing that I lost. You want to know what? I no longer feel that way. Why? Because I take joy in the moment while I still have what I have. Once it leaves I don't pity because it is gone I rejoice with the fact that I was able to have a wonderful time. If that's not making any sense that's okay I was being vague.